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Easter Morning. Suspend disbelief for a minute.

A couple of women and a couple of men, and a couple of stories.
It seems that there’s only be one thing they agree on.
God does not stay where we put him.
If this is problematic it is problematic only for us.
We like to know where things are at any given time.
It helps in our planning. It helps with our fears. It helps in our coping.

Mary and the women head to the tomb believing they know what they will find.
They are looking for a Jesus that looks like the last one they saw.
Bloodied and Beaten, wrapped and in need of a proper burial.

I can relate.
I’ve showed up at the tomb of my beliefs looking to bury a faith that had experienced a horrific beating at the hands of doubt and fear , convinced that all was dead.
I went back just to say goodbye.
But there was nothing there. Nothing to bury.

When Mary and the women arrive they don’t see what they are expecting to find.
Instead they find nothing. No body to prepare.
They run and tell the disciples of what they saw which was…nothing.
They in turn come only to see the same thing—nothing.
Often when God is up to something it looks like nothing.

Sometimes we can’t find God because we are looking for a bloody corpse.
We are looking to find an encounter that looks like the last one we had.
But God never seems to appear the way we saw him last.
Is it because God changes or because we do?
After all they have witnessed and experienced over the last few days they must be different people.  The ancient philosopher Herecletus once said:
“No man ever steps in the same river twice,
for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.”

Mary, John and Peter looking into the same dark tomb that only a day ago held their saviour. And they all seemed to experience it differently.

John arrives first but only peers into the empty tomb.
Peter shows up second, but the first to enter and in disbelief takes inventory of all he sees. John 20:8 says that when John finally went in and saw for himself the absence of a body—he believed.
John believed in what? I want to know….but yet I do know.
I know that feeling, and so do you.
When you’re facing what you believe to be something terrible,
and a FLITTER of optimism begins to manifest.
You don’t know everything—and for the firs time that is a good thing.
John believed…in something….in enough of something.
They run to tell the others that they have seen nothing, and isn’t it amazing!
This is faith—Seeing nothing and believing it to be amazing.

Then Mary, alone weeping outside. Nothing for her doesn’t have the same effect. She is not weak, or unspiritual. She is Mary.
It’s her turn to look in the tomb.
But Mary doesn’t see nothing. Mary sees something.
Two men, angelic — seated where Jesus should have been.
“Why are you crying?” they ask rhetorically—they must know.
“They have taken my Lord away”
“I don’t know where they have put him”
She glances back to discover the scene has changed again.
Or has she changed, or have both?
A man is there, a gardener?
“Who are you looking for” he asks.
“Please if you have taken him, tell me were and I will get him” she says.


She knew. He wasn’t a Gardener, He was Jesus.

Why was it only Mary who saw Jesus and not Peter and John?  Is it because she waited long enough?  Her sorrow held her their?  I am convinced that sometimes the Journey to resurrection requires us to hold our loss.  But then…

Sometimes we can’t find God because we are looking for a bloody corpse. But sometimes we can’t find God because we have mistaken him for a gardener.
That makes so much sense to me now. I think I know why I haven’t been able to find God were I left him. When I have returned to mourn the death of my hope, or my faith. And I find nothing. It’s not because God isn’t there. It is because I don’t recognize him. How many gardener’s have I walked past thinking they didn’t matter. They were just obstructions to more important ‘spiritual’ matters.
Yet all along they were the presence of the divine.
Everything I was searching for.

Jesus next words have deep meaning if only for me.
“Don’t hold on to me, as I have yet to go to the Father.”
Transformation happens in the presence of God, but not when we are holding on to it. In fact it’s God’s presence that holds us.
And it was enough for Mary.
And this morning, it is enough for me.


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